October 28, 2007
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Let me start this blog by telling you a little bit about my journey so far.
Up until about 4 years ago, I lived my life completely oblivious to “The Law of Attraction” and the fact that I have the power to control the direction of my life. When I think back to my life then, it was very good. I experienced love, joy and happiness but also frustration, anger, envy and unhappiness. The usual mix of feelings similar to what most people experience in everyday life.
Then all of a sudden the whole thing collapsed. It started with my girlfriend deciding that she was no longer happy in the relationship and that she wanted to create new experiences for herself.
That came as a shock to me as at that point we’d been together for 9 years and it had become the only life I knew.
Although it took me a long time to realise, it was a much needed wake up call because I had completely lost touch with who I was and even before the break up I was struggling with low self esteem and a constant need for approval and reassurance from her, which in itself can put a strain on any relationship.
Anyway, that was the starting point of my journey although it took me nearly a year of living in unhappiness to actually begin the journey.
I don’t remember the exact details of how I got started, but what I remember is that I was searching the Internet for ways to find happiness and I ended up downloading a series of ebooks by a Dr. Robert Anthony and at that time it was exactly what I was looking for. I guess what most people would want to know at this point, is what results or changes I got from reading those books!
In truth, I didn’t really see any results but looking back, the concept of these books opened my eyes and made me search for more.
It has taken me nearly 4 years to find myself again and to love and respect who I am unconditionally.
And that alone has been the turning point for me.
Back then my focus was purely on money (the lack of) and every book I read, every audio program I followed was only to find a way out of the severe financial difficulties I was faced with then, but I realise now that my focus was on the lack of money and not the feeling of abundance.
I felt massive amounts of frustration and anger because none of the stuff I learned seemed to work. I spent a lot of money (that I didn’t have) on various courses, seminars and “get rich quick” schemes which didn’t make any real difference, although I did learn something from every one of them.
When I shifted my focus to learning how to love myself and respect myself, things began to change for the better and they continue to improve pretty much every day now.
I know that I haven’t explained exactly how I came to this point and what I did and to be frank I think it would be a mistake to do so simply because my journey was my own and we are all unique. However, I hope that in sharing my experience, maybe someone may just end up getting something from it. If not, then at least i’ll get a way of getting stuff out of my head.