Today has been the type of day that tests your strength (or mine at least) and on reflection I would have liked to have dealt with it more positively!
Yesterday I discovered that I have a 30% chance of being made redundant from my job but I won’t know for sure for another few weeks. In the meantime I am expected to just carry on as normal, which prooved easier said than done today! I don’t know why I let myself get on a downward spiral. I can only put it down to convincing myself that yesterday’s announcement would be a perfect excuse for procrastination and that is exactly what I did! What I realise now, is that, the only achivement so far today is having created a double work load for tomorrow!!! At least I know I am the one responsible for that!
I can’t go back and start the day again so I might as well let go of the regrets and thoughts on what I could have done differently as well as the thoughts on what may happen in the next few weeks.. The day is not over yet and I have made the decision to finish the day on a positive note!
I read a wonderful blog entry a week ago and decided to go back and read it again and that inspired me to list down all the things I am grateful for;
I have a wonderful home where I can be myself.
I have the ability to write this blog, which helps me in so many ways.
I have the most caring and loving family who supports me in everything I do.
I have a job that I am good at and more importantly gives me the opportunity to help people.
I am grateful for every comment I receive on here – they mean so much more than you may think!
I am in good health
I am proud of what I have achieved.
I am getting better at loving myself.
I have the most wonderful friends and I am grateful for every moment I have with them.
I am grateful for the life I have (even when times are hard)
I am grateful for every opportunity to show kindness to a stranger.
I am grateful for the realisation that the outside world as I see it is a reflection of my inner world.
I have the ability to learn and grow whenever I choose to.
I am grateful for the feeling of contributing something, simply by writing this blog.
I can choose to be happy anytime I want to.
I love being kind and gentle.
I am grateful for everyone who chooses to share their thoughts and ideas on blogs. I have gained so much and I believe we can all learn from each other. I certainly have!
I am so grateful for “December lost in confusion” which inspired me to do this. (Thank you Shiona)
And finally I am grateful for writing this list. I can now end the day with a smile on my face.