Another wake up call came my way today in the shape of an empty bank account, which means that for the next 2 weeks I am having to live on the bare minimum.
This is, of course, not the first time that I have been in this situation and previously my reaction to this realisation would be one of adopting the attitude that this would now be my reality for the rest of my life, resulting in feeling despair for days and days after the event. And it wasn’t just around money either.
Whatever adversity I would be faced with, my instant reaction would be one of having no hope of improvement! Where did this come from? And why have I not been aware of it until now I wonder?!
My initial reaction today was a repetition of my usual reaction, but this time it was so brief and it was as if there was a voice telling me that “everything is fine as it is and will work out fine, and that since there is nothing I can do at this moment to change this, worrying about the next 2 weeks will be a waste of energy”
I guess that having a very busy day at work was a good thing, but then again, in the past I would usually completely lose my focus as my mind would fill with images of doom and gloom and it would take a huge amount of effort to snap out of it.
I am extremely happy that I didn’t react in the usual way today and while I am curious to understand what caused this positive change in reaction, I think it is more important for me to remember today next time I am faced with a set back.
Today feels like a “strange” but positive turning point.
While the next 2 weeks may prove challenging, this is the first time I am at a belief that it is only a set back (with another lesson) and that it is only temporary.
I will leave you with these beautiful words that perfectly sums up how I feel. (Thank you Fibi)
“Everything is as it should be – if it was meant to be any different – it would be..”